Here's something crazy

Swell, folks. I have just found out that children have no rights. Neither do mothers. It doesn't matter that the asshead father of my daughter has never paid child support until the state made him,(and he is already behind on that), he has been both emotionally and physically abusive to me and my other children., has not seen her since she was a little baby, never sends birthday or christmas cards, nothing....yet...none of this matters. The judge is just going to hand over my three year old daughter to a monster that WILL hurt her. Not a question of will he, but just when? And because I was afraid to press charges on him when it happened...he has all the rights. The court doesn't care that he has been abusive. So far they haven't even let me speak as to why I don't believe he should be with her. That is insane. It makes me almost lose my mind. It's like telling me to put her in the middle of the highway and then, if she gets hurt, we'll discuss why it's a bad idea. There is no justice or fairness in this. There is no one but me trying to protect her...no one who is even after her best interest besides me. Yet he can just waltz in after being an absent, shitty, abusive asshole and get whatever he wants. How do you protect your children? How in God's name can I protect her when that court won't even hear me, just keeps on granting him temporary visitation? So far it is in a public place supervised by me so I know he won't be able to physically hurt her...it's when he gets her by himself that worries me. I hope that she realizes, as an adult, that I fought for her. And that when he does decide to hurt her, maybe he will only break her heart instead of one of her arms or her neck because he lost his temper. What a dangerous creep. I can't even get a child protective order for my older two children and a restraining order against him for myself because it has been over two years since the abuse happened. It is my gut instinct to protect my children whatever the cost may be to me......and I have never felt more desparate or hopeless or useless to her. She deserves so much better. She deserves to grow up in a life where she doesn't have to be afraid of her own father. I'm scared for her. I can't be crazy today, I can't save my daughter from sure physical, emotional and mental abuse at the age of three. All I can do is cry, because she is so precious and pure and little and fragile and I am just terrified for her. And I can't do anything about it.